Yesterday, I ran 8 miles, my daughter had a field trip that required me to go borrow shoes from a friend (at 6:30 am), taught 4 piano lessons, harvested, cooked, and canned 5 pints of salsa, got my middle two kids off to elementary school with lunches, snacks, and "fresh" water bottles, had a middle of the day orthodontist appointment for 8 year old, carpool for middle school, car pool for elementary school, homework, piano practice, treats for the cub scout pack meeting that night, washed all the sheets in the house and made the beds, called and waited on hold at the bank, vacuumed and dusted the upstairs, read Moo, Baa, La La La 20 times, picked up a huge bucket of color crayons 5 times, bathed and helped wash kiddos hair, stories, scriptures, prayer, lunches for tomorrow prepped . . .
Honestly, it is often hard to not get overwhelmed with my life. I have the life I have always wanted, this is the life I pictured as I thought of what it would be like when I was older. I do recognize my blessings, I truly do. But still . . . .
I read this post about 6 months ago and it has stuck with me. I have re-read it and re-read it. I've read the post that she links to. And I keep thinking about it. What I really want most in life is to be a good person, a good wife, and a good mother. It is so easy for me to be bogged down with the good things and let the "best" things go away. At the beginning of year, I made a goal to be intentional. I am not a victim in my life. I have carefully, thoughtfully, and prayerfully prepared my list of what I would like done by the end of the day:
did I read or listen to my scriptures?
did I pray?
did I send everyone off with a smile, kiss, or hug? Did I greet them when they returned?
did I feed my family good food?
was I patient with J. when he needed all of me?
did I look into their eyes as they were talking to me?
did I raise my voice?
was the house clean by night time?
was I nice by bedtime?
did I search out their goodness and let them know?
I am trying - being a mother and wife can be rewarding and hard. My kids deserve my best and so I keep trying. Let the other things fall by the wayside. I can think of a million things that did not make the list and I'm trying to be OK with that. I've narrowed it down to what is most important to me.
What makes you feel like a good mother?